Christmas Wishes to our Angel Girl.

Merry Christmas to you our sweet angel girl, Imogen

our first of many Christmas' without your physical present
and gorgeous cuddles and kisses


We hope you like your present.
You know how much we all love snow domes, we got you the biggest
Toy Story 3 snow dome we could find.

I wrote this post before Christmas, so I hope I have not ruined the suprise of your present. Though I am quite sure you have been watching all the present wrapping sneaky girl.

I am not going to state all the obvious things we feel about you not being here, as I know you don't like the tears and would not understand why we would cry at this most amazing time of the year.

Just know our dear angel baby cakes girl, you are in our thoughts every waking moment and constantly share our dreams.

Have the most perfect beautiful Christmas Immie,
We love you to the moon and back times a zillion.

Love Mum, Dad, Kody, Ashton and Baby Sunshine.

P.S To all our avid Holmes Gang blog followers, we wish you a fabulous Christmas
and awesome New Year surrounded by close family and friends.
Thank you for your support and love in the last year, it has been truly priceless xx

Our Fourth Gift

I thought it only appropriate on the day that marks another month since Imogen became our angel girl seven months ago to announce news our little girl clearly predicted for us several months ago.

Yes I am having another baby, my fourth gift; he or she is due around the 24^th of May 2011.

Almost a month after Miss Imogen’s birthday on the 26^th of April. Another gift from the girl we all desperately miss.

We have yet to have any scans, no dating scan, no 12 week scan to check for downs etc. We just could not see the point after all we have been through we would never be able to do anything if there was something wrong with the baby. As I have told many people, it’s in the hands of the gods and angels. I am quietly positive nothing bad will happen. I have thankfully been built has a baby making machine, blessed to have no pregnancy problems, besides freaky dreams : ). My labours have been easy, barely worth a mention. I know I am lucky, and incredibly gratefully. As always I know I will have someone standing right beside me in spirit holding her mummy’s hand and keeping me and her new little brother or sister safe.

Our first scan is the 20 week scan, booked for the 29^th of December, a late Christmas present, early new years present.

I am not sure how to describe my connection or love for this new little bundle resting under my heart. It’s a mixture of joy, sadness for Imogen not being her to meet them, happiness, my mood and emotional are like the wind. Changing often, adapting to the crazy pregnancy hormones and emotions.

It’s been a year of change for us all. People are amazed when I struggle to declare this our worst year. How can I?, we were blessed to have that last holiday with Miss Immie in January, have watched our little baby, become a big bulldozer boy, about to watch Kody graduate from primary school, have a new baby on the way…there are too many gifts to declare it a bad year. We still consider ourselves lucky, blessed and gratefully for everything we have and had.

Well I better go do my jobs outside whilst destructor sleeps…: P

Love to all

Happy Silly Season to you all, the first of December and time for advent calendars already!!???

Fiona xxx

I would have loved you anyway...

I Would Have Loved You Anyway

If I'd have known the way that this would end,
If I'd have read the last page first,
If I'd have had the strength to walk away,
If I'd have known how this would hurt,
I would have loved you anyway.
I'd do it all the same,
Not a second I would change,
Not a touch that I would trade.

Had I known my heart would break,
I would have loved you anyway.
It's bittersweet to look back now,
At memories withered on a vine.
Just to hold you close to me
For a moment in time,
I would have loved you anyway.
I'd do it all the same,
Not a second I would change,
Not a touch that I would trade.

Had I known my heart would break
I would have loved you anyway.
Even if I'd seen it coming,
You'd still have see me running
Straight into your arms.
I would have loved you anyway.
I'd do it all the same,
Not a second I would change,
Not a touch that I would trade.
Had I known my heart would break
I would have loved you anyway.

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