Wow it’s been a long time since I
posted, I will be honest when I blogged last time I got to thinking whether the
blog was helping me with my grief or if it wasn’t.
You see it started to feel to me
that I was going in circles, with the same tune playing over and over again…All
I want is Imogen back, and coming to the blog just enhanced the fact again that
she ain’t ever coming back.
There are days I am comforted with
the fact Imogen can never be in pain again, she is safely tucked away in the
clouds with the other sweet angels; other days I am sad and angry that she is
not here.
I think I have slowly come to the
realisation, as many people who have lost a child have told me, that these
emotions and feelings are never going any where.
Instead in ten…twenty..years I
will still feel as passionate for the need to have Imogen here with me…though instead
of living in saddest and anger I will slowly learning to live with ‘spirit’ Imogen
and the ugly grief by my side.
I have definitely not perfected
this and the second year apart from her has definitely been harder than the
first, the numbness has gone and the raw pain has been allowed to slip in.
All I can promise right now is
that I will continue to take another step forward in life each day, with the
vow that I live my life to the fullest for Miss Imogen and everyday try to make
her proud of me as her mum.
On that note…I had a brainwave…I
didn’t want anyone to forget our Imogen and actually I wanted more people who
never knew her to know all about our amazing courageous girl.
This lead to the week before her
birthday week (which was last week) I decided to launch ‘Imogen’s Angels Dream’.
I decided to make a ‘Princess Ladybird’
brooch in green (Imogen’s favourite colour), my goal was to sell 100.
This little brooch is to be sold
from just before Imogen’s 8th birthday on the 26th of
April 2012 to the 1st of May 2012, her second angel anniversary to
remember her and also most importantly raise funds with all proceeds going to the
amazing ‘Make a Wish’.
Many of you would know we were fortunate
enough to recieve a Make a Wish for Imogen in September 2009. Fast forward a
few years and now ‘Make a Wish’ has had to stop taking any more wish applications
as their donations have had a major downturn and they already have up to 300
ungranted wishes already on their books!
The memories we have from Imogen’s
Make a Wish are priceless to us and we want to give a little (or a lot) of the love
back to Make a Wish.
If you think you can help me and
Imogen’s dream by purchasing one or many ‘ Princess Ladybirds’ please drop over
to my facebook site by clicking on the link below. Did you know even if your not a facebook member you can
still have a look!. If that does work you can send me an email to imogen’sangels@hotmail.com.
Up to last night we had already
sold 85, so my goal looks like it will be blown away already for this year!
Though I am happy to continue to make as many ‘Princess Ladybird’ as need to
raise money for Make a Wish after all…
Love to you all
Fiona
Forever Imogen’s Mum
