A few weeks before Imogen’s passing, we entered a picture Imogen had drawn into a competition promoting WA Families Week. I also had to give a short bio on our amazing girl.
I entered it in knowing I thought the picture was beautiful, as it would be the last Imogen ever drew of her family. Not that surprisingly two days after Imogen’s passing, I received an email stating that she was one of three runner ups out of hundreds of entries. It was a lovely treat to know our girl was still out there touching people’s life.
Fast forwarding to last Monday, we had two special guests come to our house to meet the Holmes’ Gang. Minster McSweeney (Minister of Families) and her policy officer Judy Tennant presented us with a framed copy of Imogen’s picture she had entered. Minster McSweeney had a lovely time being bewitched by the gorgeous Ashton and we had a chat about the amazing girl Imogen was to us.
Several days later we received Imogen’s prize an exclusive preview to go see Toy Story 3, whilst we were delighted to receive this it was also heart breaking to know one seat would be empty. A parting gift from the dearest girl ever, she would have loved to have seen it with us. Though as my wise Mr Kody pointed out she would have already watched it a zillion times in heaven, no waiting for exclusive previews there.
I must also mention the incredible trekkers, who I meant to thank when writing about Immie’s passing parade. These incredible people came from far distances with there amazing vehicles (batmobile, fire engine, Simpson car to name only a few) to be here for us at Imogen’s passing parade. At Pinarroo we were very touch when the trekkers formed a guard of honour as our Imogen made her last journey. We can not thank these kind hearted people enough, who have embraced Imogen and her zest for living. Without them Imogen biggest dream would never had come true, her very own swimming pool. They have decided to keep Imogen as their inspiration and trek princess for 2010.
Please click on the below link to see the work they do –
http://www.thetrek.org.au/
Imogen's under the inspiration part.
Well I can’t lie and say that life without Imogen is anything but incredibly hard. It has been almost possible to understand how our beautiful brave girl who did every treatment is now resting at Pinarroo. Your head tries to work through the logic, but your heart does not let it settle. Even though we are grateful she is no longer in pain, we are still here hurting so very much.
Each one of us at different parts of the day are at different places in the grieving process, rarely do we all fall apart at the same time (thankfully). Many people have told us we will see her again, I just can’t imagine at this time how I can possible wait for another 50 years to see her again. That time seems unfathomable; all we want is her back with us now.
Even when Imogen was diagnosed I never once thought she would not make it through the treatment and be cancer free. Now the days have added together and silently become almost a month since she has been gone. We now slowly have to face the reality of our new normal, one without our precious girl.
Quite frankly right now it suxs.
We are gratefully for our two beautiful boys, one who makes us laugh whilst reading books to Immie at Pinnaroo by making us part of the Mr Men Books and the other is our glue, beautiful bright smiles, baby giggles and shoulder snuggles.
As some wise person said to me you will never get over this lose, it is one that nothing will ever be able to distract you from, but you will eventually learn to grow around it.
Right now the pain is too fierce to imagine that, but I do hope that this will eventually occur.
Much Love Fiona, Jason, Kody, Imogen and Ashton xx
